Changed or grew?

I prefer to think that people doesn't change, they grow. Growing up (or growing old) is a process we can't stop until we die. Our body, our mind, our soul. Growing, is a process that makes us who we are today.

When we grow, we learn, we gain experience, we experience things that makes us who we are.

What kind of person do I want to be? What kind of career do I want? I can't just change myself to be what I want in a second, I have to learn, realize what I want, how do I achieve that? I have to grow, I have to remember the lesson taught, know why do I do this.

I need to grow. My body, my mind, my soul.

Bad Decisions

We make decisions everyday. Some are just tiny things like coffee or tea, and some has bigger consequences that affects your life, people around you, the community, or even your country.

Good decisions are rewarding, and sometimes it's the bad decisions that has more impact in our lives, that we learn from.

I've join a partnership with a photographer and videographer since last year. And I decided to quit on September. I've learned a lot working with them. But I also learned that choosing the right people to work with is more important. I can't see the future in the partnership, I do not want to work with them. Even thou there's money coming in, but I'm not happy with what I'm doing.

I do not wish to be tied down working with them, doing stuffs I don't have the passion in it.

On top of that, my social life gets affected. Had some misunderstandings between my friends, I don't get much time to attend church, I've missed out on some responsibilities, some tasks I had to do.

I'm glad I've decided to quit that partnership. And I can see God's blessing coming to me. :)

Recovery

Feels good to be mentally, emotionally, and physically healthy! :D
Next step, spiritually healthy.

What I've learned is that, in life, everything will come and pass.

Weird Dream #2

Well, from now on, I'll try to record all the weird dreams I have here. Here goes...

Mom came home, gave me a fruit. I left it in the living room.

Then it's the Olympics. It's being held in Malaysia. I tried to go to the stadium to watch the opening ceremony, but, it was too crowded, I went to a cafe outside the stadium, watching the TV live broadcast the opening of the Olympic Games.

After that, I went to a place with lots of green (field, trees, flowers) to get away from the crowded cafe, and there a girl kissed me.

I was surprised and went home, saw that fruit mom brought home, and I took a bite.

Just then I noticed that the fruit is rotten, and there's worms inside, and in my mouth!

Then I woke up.

Fighting & Result

Do not fight for something that you don't see the result. Do not fight if you don't wish to make a change. Why argue when they don't listen? Just prove it to them. Why argue when it makes no difference? It's a waste of time.

Sometimes stuffs have different solutions. Winning an argument or a fight doesn't make you a better person, doesn't solve the problem, doesn't make anyone really happy, only breaks relationships.

Take a few deep breathes, step back, take some time to think.

Maybe just list down the facts why you think your idea is right and also why is the other idea bad/wrong.

Recently I read a little from the book, Thinking Course by de Bono, it teaches about PMI to an idea. P=plus, M=minus, I=interesting. Plus, why is it good, etc. Minus, why is it bad. Interesting, for listing down the interesting stuffs that is neither good or bad.

I wish I can slow down sometimes. Take more time to think about stuffs. Take some time to think before talking or replying. Keep my cool... Everything will be so much different.

Insanity is keeping me alive these days. I don't know what I'm talking about.